On Paper

Have you ever looked in the mirror, and just burst into tears?
Have you ever fallen to the floor, crushed under the weight of your fears?

Have you ever crossed your fingers when you promised: "I'm okay"?
Have you ever been asked: "What's wrong?" and had no clue what to say?

Have you ever laughed for one whole day, then cried for one whole night?
Have you ever sung in darkness, hoping it would bring some light?

Have you ever reached out your arm, just searching for another hand?
Have you ever put your feelings on paper, hoping someone would understand?

Let It All Go

I'll change my name.
I'll chase the rain.
I'll stay the same,
Embrace the pain.

I'll bend her will.
I'll top the bill.
I'll calmly sit still,
Brace for the kill.

I'll run and hide.
I'll let myself cry.
I'll scream inside,
Let out a sigh.

I'll hold on tight.
I'll stand up and fight.
I'll sleep through the night,
Wake to the morning light.

I'll collect my tears.
I'll accept guarantees.
I'll relinquish my fears,
Won't beg on my knees.

I'll hope for the best,
Lay down and rest.

I'll let it all go,
The hurt and the woe.

Down To Me

When it's cold, I look to you for warmth.

When it's dark, I look to you for light.

But, now I find myself alone

in this cold, dark night.

Well, now that I have lived and died,

I have finally come to see

That in the end, it all comes

Down To Me

At Least for Today

I'm not going to lie
I won't tell you I've never wanted to die
But I see you smiling at me, and it seems

At least for today, I matter
At least for today, I might recieve and not just give
At least for today, I matter
At least for today,
I'll live.

Send me a smile
Please, send me a smile
And day after day,
I'll live.

Starving

I thought I was just hungry,
But now I see,
I'm Starving for reality.

all i have to give is my heART

Sometimes...

Sometimes, I feel too much--
Sometimes, I just feel numb--
Sometimes, I scream--
Sometimes, I bite my toungue--
Sometimes, I smile--
Sometimes, I cry--
Sometimes, I itch--
Sometimes, I scratch--
Sometimes, I drive--
Sometimes, I wanna drive far away, and never come back--
Sometimes, I just wanna drive my car into a telephone pole--
Sometimes, I wanna drive to your house--
Sometimes, I get scared--
Sometimes, I feel brave--
Sometimes, I sing--
Sometimes, I dance--
Sometimes, I laugh--
Sometimes, I laugh so hard that everything I ever cried about seems to disappear--
Sometimes, I share--
Sometimes, I hide--
Sometimes, I love--
Sometimes, I love so much it hurts--
Sometimes, I don't love enough--
Sometimes, I'm angry with you--
But mostly, I'm just angry with myself--
Sometimes, I hate you--
But never as much as I hate myself--